Better is the end of a thing than its beginning, and the patient in spirit is better than the proud in spirit. Be not quick in your spirit to become angry, for anger lodges in the heart of fools. 
Ecclesiastes 7:8-11

A time I never anticipated has come for me and I'm truthfully not sure what it means. I'm a bit uncertain as I say this, but I think I'm over Instagram. Holds breath for dramatic grasp! 

Whether or not that's a shocker to you, I know for sure it is to me. I'm a millennial and a blogger, so insta is like a big part of my life. I use it both personally and professionally, and I've been on the platform for over five years. I've had the moments where I choose to forgo time on there, but very rarely have I ever felt the way I am now.

I just don’t have fun on it like I once did, especially when it comes to using it for my blog. 

Thankfully, I didn't reach this point from comparing. I thinks that's one of the worst things about social media and is a hard hole to come out. My personal qualms come from the blogger status I'm in where it is expected for my feed to be a certain way, for me to produce visually appealing stories, and for me to remain authentic, while also looking like a traditional blogger. Translation: thin, tan, beach waves, and clothing that resembles what a lot of other girls have on. 

I don't want to step on any toes, because I've met some girls that are traditional bloggers and really own their brand, all while fitting that mold. It's just that it's so underwhelming to me to see the same thing over and over, which happens. Granted, it could be the people I follow, but even the nontraditional bloggers have a way of easing into a curated and crafty vibe that gets an eye roll. 

Maybe it's me, but I feel that what I see is a loss of personality and an extra large dose of #aesthetic. Yes, its cute and very pretty, but it's very tiring to maintain that and I don't want to anymore.

I'm not leaving Instagram because it is a valuable marketing tool, but I am done with working on being a curator. That's not my aspiration and it never was. I wanted to be fashion blogger who shared funs and the more I read, it was appaarent hat I needed to share it in a cute way. Been there and done that, so now I just want to share what I like, when I like, and how I like. Simple. 

He said to them, “Because of your little faith. For truly, I say to you, if you have faith like a grain of mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move, and nothing will be impossible for you."
Matthew 17:20

There are two things that I wanted to talk about today, both rather brief, but I feel they are bot relevant with the start of the new month. The first is the importance of movement and the second is the new direction that Syd and the City will be going in!
First, I want to quote the bible when we are told that, "Faith without works is dead" (James 2:17). I thought sharing that initially was important because I'm now going to tell you that it is important that we move towards our goals, even we we're unsure of what to do. This is something I've been struggling with recently and if it's not one of the toughest things ever. OH MY GOSH. Personally, I work best with a set plan wit steps, plans get me where I need to be. But in this oh so wonderful life we have, there is no plan I can look at to make sure I'm making the right moves, the only option is to move by faith. 

This is something that is actually hard. I think because humans are conditioned to see things as cost and reward, its anxiety inducing to think of doing something pretty costly to only not reap the desired reward. For example purposes, think of Michelle Obama who received two Ivy League degrees to become a lawyer only to realize she didn't like it. I'm currently reading Becoming and that's where I'm at. If she does decide to continue law, let me know and I'll get another example. Nonetheless, God has a funny way of orchestrating things because even when we don't reap the desired reward, we still gain something. Whether it be experience, new skills, confidence within ourselves, or a relationship with Spirit, it'll never be for nothing. 

Secondly, I'm excited to share that I'm moving Syd and the City in a more lifestyle direction. I love fashion and throwing on cute fits for you guys, but that's not what I'm here for. More than anything, I want to connect someone, somewhere to my main man upstairs. It is my goal to write about things that I feel are relevant to leading a more God centered life, being who you actually are, and loving everything that comes from both. Not much will change because I've been dedicating blog posts to these topics already, but I wanted to formally let anyone reading this blog know that. 

Photography via Bluufox Studios

Outfit Deets
Shirt: Gap | Skirt: Levi's | Shoes: Gap | Purse: Zara

For we are God's masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things He planned for us long ago. 
Ephesians 2: 10

When I was younger, I wanted to be Oprah. 

She was black, smart, and had a talk show. I'm a talker and being able to have my own show was the dream, but I wanted more than that so...I wanted to actually be Oprah. That was my childhood dream. At some point, the dream dissipated as I grew and had to think of more "realistic" dreams. It took a while, and after lots of talks with myself and God, I came to realize that the dream I had as a kid fit me better than the dream I settled on as a young adult. 

As I observe society, I find it interesting that children are always told to dream big, often until their childlike mind begins to mature and then they are to practice practicality. And I totally understand the mind of a parent that wants nothing, but the security for their child, nonetheless, I think not supporting those innate desires kinda makes life a little frustrating. 

Call me crazy, but I think children know more than we adults believe. With a mind thats not constrained by societal expectations yet, they both dream big and trust themselves, and there is beauty in that. Jesus talked about the mind of a child in the bible, and I happen to believe that that same innocent mind that He preached about believing in Him, is able to receive instructions from Him too. There's just a delicate responsibility to protect and cultivate those instructions, while simultaneously navigating the realities of the world. 

The older I get, the more I find myself relating to the child I once was. She was fearless, spunky, and really believed she could do whatever she wanted. While Oprah is no longer my goal - I'm old enough to know you can't be a whole other person- I do aspire to be very similar to her, but in my own way. It  blew my mind when I came to understand that what I wanted to do in life was something I've always wanted. It's like little Sydney had the blueprint all along and I just had to trust myself (and God) to find my way there.

Photography via Bluufox Studio

Outfit Deets
Dress: Gap | Shoes: Steve Madden | Purse: Zara

And in your offspring shall all the nations of the earth be blessed, because you have obeyed my voice.

Genesis 22:18

Ancestor : A person, typically one more remote than a grandparent, from whom one is descended. 

As a young woman with big dreams, I’ve often think of who I will be when I get older. While I’m working on creating success now, I do think that my success will climb as I age. We are NOT peaking in the twenties over here. I’m confident that as I grow, I will mature and venture into other areas to be of service in different ways. 
While I work on starting my legacy, I’ve come to realize that one of the goals for my life is to generate an impact on people beyond my children and grandchildren. Wittingly, I am working on being a knowledgeable, kind, and resourceful ancestor. The same way I am able to do what I do because of others who paved the way, I aspire to provide that for others. 

It’s funny that at 22, I am focusing on life well beyond my now. It’s almost as if it came as a revelation that it’s about more than just me, but as I’ve prayed over my life and plans, I understand the importance of being more for someone else. Part of the premise behind #SydatCity has always been to show others ways to go after what they want. Despite being the central focus, I am blogging for more than just myself. The best of both worlds for a Leo! 
I recently saw a devotional that centered around not trying to control the future because that’s saying to God to you don’t trust Him to do His job. It’s imperative that I note, I’m not tying to do that. I’m simply working for more than myself and allowing God to do His do with what comes from me. I believe we’re here on earth to be blessings for others and I’m choosing to walk in that. Some willingly go after sharing blessings (Solomon) and some have to share them after a fight (Jonah). Either way, the blessings will be shared. 

Within the recent days, this whole point has been reiterated to me in the biggest way with the passing of Nipsey. Rarely do we notice the impact we have on others until it's too late, so today, I am choosing to acknowledge I have something to share now and work on how I go about it. There will be a legacy left behind when I am gone and I need to make sure that it positively affects those that matter. What is left tied to my name matters because the intentional work I put in today will help the diligent work of someone else tomorrow. 

Photography via Bluufox Photography

Outfit Deets
Top: H&M| Jeans: Gap | Shoes: Steve Madden | Glasses: Quay x Desi Perkins 

And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast.1 Peter 5:10

For the last few days, I've found myself praying for people I've never met more than usual. The life of rapper Nipsey Hussle was cut short on March 31, 2019, and his untimely death has affected me more than I ever would have anticipated. I wasn't a fan of his music, but mainly knew of him from his relationship with Lauren London, but his death still hits hard.
When a man of his stature, he was in a gang - something I think is important to note, wants to build up his community in various ways such as creating jobs, providing youth access to STEM programs, and teaching ways of financial liberation, we have to recognize that as a loss for us all. His death impacts more than just those who knew him personally, but also those that benefited from his dedication to the betterment of our people. At the age of 33, his life was just starting in my opinion, but I don't think his legacy has to die with him. 
I stand with everyone working to uplift the community in ways that are noble and beneficial to everyone involved. I have been inspired by this man's legacy to keep the faith and do my part to better my community, not just for myself but for us all. The marathon is going to continue. 

Being brief, I just wanted to touch on a few outfit details. 

Because we are in a warmer season, I've officially ditched my tights and let my legs have their freedom. I usually don't do mini dresses, unless it's a night time event, but one thing that made me love this dress was the long sleeves. It felt daytime appropriate given that nothing other than the legs were the focal point, thanks to the button -up neck and covered arms. 
With the weather being very wishy-washy right now, opting for my legs to show and have covered arms was perfect for me. I felt seasonally appropriate, while also weather appropriate too, something that I think is hard when we just start a new season. 

Photography by Bluufox Photography

Outfit Deets:
Dress: Zara | Shoes: Zara | Clutch: Old Navy | Sunglasses: Ray-Ban 
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